The First Exam

It's been years since I've taken an exam that matters.

I had been complacent in my career for years, not willing to attempt the next step towards progression - perhaps in some ways because I had enough turbulence in my personal life that I was not willing to rock the boat any further. I was content in the way things were in my daily life, with my friends and activities, and perhaps, I was reluctant to make the sacrifices to change the status quo.

The thought of change can be one of the biggest barriers to oneself, and yet it's something so essential. 

I always wanted to embrace life, to challenge myself, and yet I held back with the same efforts with my professional life.

The exam itself wasn't a turning point.

It was an attempt to move forward, a progression that I had waited many years to even attempt. A leap over that stumbling block inside my head, one that told me that I would not be able to cope, that there were others who were more qualified.

As I attempted the answers, I realized how uncertain I was, and how little I knew - and it did not seem right to me that I should be content with my state of hesitancy. It was not fair to me, and it was not fair to the patients that I see on a daily basis, and whatever the outcome, it was a reminder that I should continue to better myself.

I was surprised I made it through the exam, one out the twenty plus odd candidates out of the seventy who sat for the exam, many who I felt were more knowledgeable than I.

I did not make it through the interview, but it was okay.

The attempt at the exam was a start.

Now to keep the momentum going!